This is the title that I give this because I am about to do something I never thought I would do again and that is standing up to my dad. He thinks that he knows everything and I have spent my life hearing that he was never meant to be a leader and then there is me. All my life I have lived through the pain and suffering of being ME. I  grew up in a time where it was better to beat your child rather than raising them like children. I have always been by myself and my parents have never really been there, even now that I have accomplished more than anyone in either side of the family and then the people that were dear to the heart I once had are gone and my heart with it as well. My heart is non-existence and I have no love for anyone except my husband, daughter and even the animals that we take care of. Other than that everyone else is a waste of space. So what this means is that I  need to step up. I will start putting my  foot down on various things and making sure that certain people are not looked at for what they did to break and destroy the family. 

I would have to say that the biggest mistake that my dad made was to pick on my daughter and what she wanted to do. He also still  does not understand that he  affects  those that aren’t mentally there, when he isn’t either because he also has dementia and he is just getting older and no other child is taking the reins, so that means I will need to, so I have many things to think of, but I know what I have to do. Either way I am willing to lose everything, depending on what my dad decides to answer is whether he still has a daughter  or I divorce them and never look back. At least I know who I  am and I am not stepping down for anyone unless I choose too and that is not what  I want to do. I am not going to take their shit anymore, so if  the world is ending then I welcome it and will start  leading the way that  my grandmother wanted me to. 

I proudly state that I am the anti-christ of my family and I might as well be, given that I discovered the temple of Satan along with my traditions and well I can say I  have a balance that I know will take me far, so here I come and I will be making my stand. I have many pieces to move in this chess game, but the great thing is that I used  to play chess and was a part of a chess club at some point and I know where to make my moves where I need to. Now just getting down to what I need to do first and then after. I would say wish me luck, but I know I got this.