I am an ONLY child!

Yes I am an ONLY child, because I am my dad’s only daughter. My dad became so when he was 33 years old, but I was raised and made to go to school at a Catholic school. Of course I got my threats of “if you fuck up, you go to boarding school”. Out of all of my dad’s siblings as well as himself, he was the only one that had a single child. Now in Navajo tradition we are taught that females are the strongest and most blessed children, because they are the ones that take over the land. Now if the child is a male, well that means that whoever he would marry, is the time when he packs up and goes to live where his wife is. Daughters are always kept close, so I guess you can say that is the reason why I was named the name I have in navajo! I have also been raised in the traditional way, you know those days when herding sheep was done on foot, sleeping in a hogan on a sheepskin, and walking through the pitch black of the night! Listening to my grandma telling me what to help her with in navajo.

So growing up as an only child is not easy because I was always by myself, I had to learn various. things, and when it came to playing I had to speak to myself, of course sounding crazy to some, but those that are only kids know this for a fact. I had to become independent right away, and I am glad I figured this out early as opposed to trying to figure out how to live life. Now when I was a little girl I always had cats, so they were the ones that protected me, until I got older and started having dogs. Eventually I learned to protect myself, but everyone that meant something to me in my life that have passed are gone. I am still rich since my mom and dad are still alive. Everyone else that was family are dead and gone, and I have no feelings for them, because you, and you know who you are reading this. I have been through so much shit that I have grown heartless, emotionless, and soulless. So I am not to be fucked with, so good riddance to the rest of the family. However, if you are angry at this, just do one thing “just say I am DEAD, because I am to you and I have no reason to know you”.

Now I am the one that has created an only child as well and I know that she is a rare treasure that I would do anything for. She also knows that to the bone, and I know that she is the same when it comes to her parents, but we all work together. I will say that it is not always perfect, but at least I’m not stupid telling my child that “snitches get stitches”, that’s ok, she wasn’t meant to be a mother. However I will say that it is weird telling my daughter that at her age right now I had been pregnant and about to deliver at the age she is. It is almost like looking in a mirror, because she has my look and I know she will do great things!