Day 2 Feeling It

Of course I would be feeling it, because the last time I really exercised was last year before I went into deep depression, but I did whatever my body ordered me to do. In this case I fell asleep during the day, especially when I could not get to sleep after I woke up at 3 am. Did as much walking as possible, but then again I have my migraines to deal with, but just another day done. Now for day 3 to hit, yes I know I am a day behind, but I am writing as I go, besides the other things that I normally post.

So for day 3 I am focusing on dynamics and endurance, when day 1 was coordination. I am also trying to incorporate some things that I need to do each and everyday that will help me in the long run. Becoming Joker again, but in my case maybe twice as evil, but still great. I have to make sure that I work on my workout room, so that I can become a better me. Plus I see the truths of my so-called family, everyone I knew or was special to me in some way has died. I miss my brother Ernie like crazy, but I know that he is looking down at me and I also miss Bennie. Bennie was my SNL partner after he would come back from work at Sizzlers.

It seems like the people that really mattered to me and vice versa has died. Those are the ones that I would have loved to keep, but other than those I named just know I think of you as dead. So don’t act like you know me, because you do not know shit. I swear besides Bob and Bennie, I am the female in this family that has gone through the most shit and I AM STILL HERE BITCHES! So like Luda says “move bitch, get out my way!” Ready to welcome the new year, I write these to vent and to show you a side that not many people show especially those that are Native American and would like to help they’re own out!