What is one thing that annoys you about the way you grew up?

To tell you the truth I hated that since I was born, I have always been around my family, but then I have family that are disgusted with the way we are as Navajos and would say shit here and there. I mean growing up I have always been about following my traditional teachings and I would here nagging here and there. My niece used to say stuff about some of my cousins that I hung out with and she never liked them and never wanted to hang out with them. Now all of a sudden she’s about being Native, when this whole time she is acting white, if your native don’t complain, just live. I mean I don’t think she has ever butchered, but she loves the mutton ribs. I don’t know why all of a sudden thought she needed to get with her heritage.

I swear back in the day my niece would just say that people on the rez where ghetto and it seemed like she was ashamed of being Navajo, so why didn’t you chose your Mexican side instead. Oh, yeah you didn’t because you don’t speak spanish or Navajo. I also hear that when they have ceremonies they give up the fight before it even starts. Like they would say “I can’t do it” and with me I never question it and put the full effort into my traditions. If it has to be done I will always do it when it comes to my ceremonies that are performed on me!

I wonder if my sisters first baby was a girl or boy? Don’t know because I was told that she had gotten rid of one, not sure if she named it? Because traditionally she would have to name that child. To believe my sister could have had 6 kids instead of 5. Either way I don’t know these people anymore and I don’t wish to know them, so you can go ahead and act like I am either DEAD or don’t exist! Have a nice life without me in it! I have my husband and daughter who are my true family that we created together and continue to. Then there is the fact that since I moved back, I don’t see anyone visiting as much as when I used to live in El Paso, but they got their own thing. What doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger. Overall I am just getting everything out because I am tired of my family.